Monday, November 3, 2008

Life never seems to amaze me. One minute I am ecstatic and the very next worriesome and anxious. After anxiously awaiting an email that was supposed to be here on Friday it finally came at 5:00 pm tonight. I read it three times making sure my facts were straight and immediately called our caseworker. I expected to get her email and suprisingly she answered. The email contained information on a sibling group of three that were available for immediate adoption. They were a boy, Christian 4 years old, a girl Delilah 3 years old, and another girl Ava 1 year old. They are precious and have been through so much in their short life. Brandon and I knew instantly we would proceed with this case and pray for the best. So I am excited when Elaine answers the phone. I tell her we are infact interested in this placement and to my horror she says that another family has already said they were interested as well. This does NOT mean we won't be able to open our homes to these blessings, it just means that now we are "in competition" with another family. I pray that this is the one, but we have known too much disappointment to get overly excited. I just feel awful having to have my life on paper waged up against another couple's life on paper and see who's is better. That sounds just awful! But that is the system and so far the system seems to be working. We will just pray for our children to make it to our home soon. Wouldn't it be nice to have children to celebrate Christmas with?! Please keep us in your prayers during this time. We could know as early as the end of this week! Thanks!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Patience IS a virtue??

It is 8:30 pm. I am exhausted. I want to go to bed now and just wait for tomorrow to happen. For some reason, though, I cannot sleep. I lay down, toss, turn, awake, and repeat the cycle over again. The foster system is messing with my head. LOL. I was once told: If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans. If this is true, God sure has been getting a kick out of me! I am very good at making plans, lists, and back ups. I am not so good at waiting for someone else's plan to happen for me. Every time my phone rings I think it is CPS calling to let us know we have been matched with a child. And everytime I look down at the caller i.d. I am so very disappointed. This technically means that there are no children that are in need of our services right now, and that however is a Wonderful thing! But my home is ready. I make sure it is perfectly clean every night before I go to bed just in case we get a 3am call. Twice I didn't clean thinking that maybe that would do it! God is laughing! I know these things are in His time. I am truly blessed to even be on the list as it is. I know that our children are out there waiting for us! I just wish they would hurry up and get here. Is is possible to miss someone you haven't even met yet? I sure do! As we practice our nightly routines I think how things will change when the babies arrive. Less privacy, more love. That sounds like a fair trade to me! Thank you Lord for allowing us to be foster parents. Thank you for blessing our home with so much love to share. Please, Lord, keep our babies safe and one day we will meet them.

Good night!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Can Anyone Hear Me???

Getting the call that we are officially foster parents went into history as one of the best days every. It will forever be an amazing day, but for some reason I felt that we would immediately get the phone call that there has been a placement. Its been four very long days and my phone has rang less than usual. Timing is tricky. When you want something to happen it never does. When you have a dentist appointment the time flies by. Brandon says I just need to wait, but now I have panic. I wake up flushed and sweating thinking I missed the call in the middle of the night. This morning I woke up wondering if maybe I gave the old phone number. I know that is not true, but my mind is officially playing tricks on me.
Just letting you guys know.
Praying for a phone call at 3 am!!!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Blessed

Today is big.
BIG!

As of noon today we officially became foster parents. We simply have to live with our phones attached to our bodies waiting for it to ring for the rest of our lives, but how wonderful that news is. This means we are mommy and daddy. Those words have long been yearned for in our house. We wait and wonder if we will ever hear them, and now that day is coming. Brandon is such a wonderful person. I called to tell him the news and his first response was "congratulations mommy." What more could I ever ask for?!
Now we wait. As awful as the wait seems I know it will all be worth it. We are going to change children's lives and have them touch our hearts, and that is always worth waiting for.

We are blessed. We are truly blessed by what God is doing in our lives. How wonderful He is and faithful. I always knew I was a mom. I longed for a positive pregnancy test or even the slightest glimpse of morning sickness. And though we have not given up hope on that exciting adventure, we are now aware that this is where God has wanted us all along. So my future now holds tons of dirty diapers, teething, spit up, ouchies, and a heaping amount of laundry. But it also holds love, compassion, snuggles, kisses, first steps, and so much more!
Anytime now, we will receive that call that will once again change our lives forever. Somewhere out there are three children waiting for us as much as we are for them. Hello my sweet babies. We will see you soon!!!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Seriously??!!!

The wonderful day of Sept 8th came quicker than we could ever have imagined. It marked the end of the foster parent verification process. This was fingerprint day. However uneventful the day was : drive to Abilene, get fingerprinted, take a picture, return home, we could never have expected what was to happen next. NOTHING!!!!! The kind ladies at the office said this process should take a maximum of three weeks; well here we are six weeks later and still zilch. I am an impatient person by nature, but now I feel like my nerves are being tested. Can this process take any longer? When will we get that life-changing phone call?

So in the mean time, we have set up the kid's room. We painted. We bought beds. We found carseats in all sizes, high chairs, swings, clothes, toys, etc that will suffice a boy or girl ranging in age of newborn to five. We are ready!!!!! Apparently though the system is not.

We have anxiously awaited the time when we will be parents. We have accepted and grown overly excited by the prospect of helping children in need. We have laughed, cried, and worried for six weeks now. When will our day come?

As of tonight at 8:17 we are not foster parents. We are, however, a mommy and a daddy. We are just simply waiting for our children to arrive.