Saturday, September 26, 2009

Tiny Fingers Touching My Heart

Deep brown eyes. Long dark hair. A smile that lights up the room. These are the things that take up my day. From morning to night I am enthralled with this little person who already has me and his daddy wrapped around his tiny finger.

I thought I would take a moment though and tell you all a little more about our little man. Matthew is special. He is special because he is our baby, but he is also special because God created him to be unique. Matthew has Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum, Septo Optic Displaysia, and Seizure disorder. He is missing two parts of his brain, his corpus callosum and his septum pellucidum. However, this does not define him. This is a challenge that our sweet boy will learn to accept and overcome. He is visually impaired and we are unsure how much sight he will have. Last night as my husband was rocking him, I asked if he thought Matthew knew I was his mother and if he knew what I looked like. Out of nowhere, this tiny hand went to my cheek and Matthew began to stroke the side of my face and coo. How amazing that was. The entire world is literally at his fingertips. He is already showing signs of being a music lover which thrills my husband and my own heart. Our sweet boy is already doing things we were sure what take more time for him to accomplish. He is raising his head up more and more, and he is gathering more control of his neck muscles. He is becoming so much more alert and spends his days enjoying his toys. He is even starting to hold them! He also wakes up with a huge smile on his little face, which we are absolutely in love with.

Matthew also already has an entrouage. He is seen by a slue of doctors. He has a pediatrciain, an ENT, an opthamologis, a neurologist, a genetist, and an endocronologist. He is also visited by many different therapists.

We are trying to persuade him to enjoy some tummy time. He attempted his best today and we lasted 30 minutes!! I was very excited

Recently our little Matthew received a doc-band to help shape out his head. The doctors were unsure on whether this would work for him because of his diagnoses. However, after a week we went back to the doctor and his head, in fact, is making progress! We are so excited. We were a little worried about how Matthew would react to his new accessory. Our little trooper is doing great. He doesn't seem to mind his making a fashion statement, and he certianly is the talk of the town!

Matthew has been home almost a month. We have never felt more complete than we do when we hold our prince in our arms. He is truly amazing. I cannot wait to see what he will teach us about life.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Our Fairytale

Once upon a time in a land not so far away there lived a queen and a king. King Fought and his queen longed for a child of their own. The castle was big and empty and quiet. So many years passed and the king and queen continued to pray for their unborn child.

This is our story. It is a story about loss, patience, prayer, and faith. Last week we were still just Brandon and Brandi Fought. We loved our job as foster parents, but continued to pray that one day our dream of having a child to call our own would come true. Just a week ago, through a number of channels, we were introduced to a wonderful woman who has become a part of our family. Together we discussed a little boy whom we hoped would be our prince. After much prayer and a whole lot of faith we knew in our hearts this was our son. I still cannot believe just how fast everything happened!

After tons of paperwork, many phone calls, tons of questions, and more anxiety than I have ever known, our day finally came. As we approached the office where we would first be introduced to our son, I was sick!! Calm and poised, with vomit in my throat, we approached the office. We were greeted by a wonderful woman who led us into a quiet vacant area. I waited as patiently as I think anyone can. Just minutes had passed and the door opened. An angel, we will call Jan, walked in holding the most beautiful creation I have ever laid eyes on. As she placed this miracle into my arms, my heart became full. I have never understood why parents just stare at their children as if they are waiting for the answers to all of life's questions to appear. For the next two hours I watched as my son held those answers in his big brown eyes. He nuzzled to my heart and cooed as I talked to him. My husband cried tears of joy as he held his son for the first time. The rest of the day was lots of crying, paperwork, and joy. I think all the people we encountered probably assumed we were crazy!!!

But tonight as I tell our story I am listening to my sweet husband tell our son "I am your daddy and I love you so much!" All the time, pain, and heartbreak we have endured mean nothing as I look into the eyes of my future. I feel like my heart grew much bigger than I even knew possible. He is amazing. He is perfect. He is ours!

So please allow me to introduce our prince, Joshua Matthew Lee Fought!!!