Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Crazy




I live by routine.

I wake up and enjoy a fresh cup of coffee (actually a little coffee with my cream and sugar).
I call my dearest friend that is 214 miles away and we share our coffee together along with our expectations for the day.

I crave routine.

Well, that was before I became a mother.

Motherhood is all about expecting the unexpected. It takes guts! You have to be able to look fear in the face and stand your ground.

Even if that fear is an explosive diaper!

Our sweet Autumn has been home for just over three weeks now! Has time really gone by that fast?? She is thriving! She has adjusted well, and now runs this roost. Autumn is the opposite of Matthew. Matthew is my surfer dude. He takes things in stride and goes so easily with the flow. Autumn on the other hand is my Diva (with a capital D). She is vocal and verbalizes what she wants at all times. Her favorite person is the pretty little girl with the big bow that she sees only when she looks into the mirror. She prefers to be the center of attention. She has the sweetest laugh, and has decided she is too big for baby food. Apparently we are going to bypass the baby food stage all together and leap in with both feet into "big people" food.


Matthew's adoption has been finalized for right at two months now. He has been home for eight months. Each and every day has been a discovery for Matthew. He is so good natured. He loves people! He loves to be snuggled. He has the best giggle when you tickle his back. His smile is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Just this morning as he sat in his rocker with his glow worm, he focused on his toy and touched it. I realize this is not late breaking evening news to most of you, but for us I would post in on a billboard if I could. He is constantly growing and learning.

I have been thinking a lot about being a mom. I had visions of what I thought it would be like. I played out the movies in my mind of the perfect little family


  • we would hang our laundry out to dry on a line while the children played in the yard
  • we would lave leisurely afternoons with happy children
  • we would send out the most beautiful Christmas cards with a perfect picture of us smiling

Then I became a mom. Although every moment is a blessing, things are not neatly packed into this beautiful scenario I envisioned.

  • There are more dirty diapers than I know what to do with.
  • I have successfully learned how to change a diaper while in public quickly and effeciently without having anyone notice.
  • My dryer and my dishwasher and I have a healthy relationship.
  • I can hold a 22 lb child in one hand and rock a 10 lb baby in the other.
  • I have found my voice when it comes to doctor appointments, medication, treatments, etc.
  • The perfect picture taken at my house consists of drool or snot coming from one of the kids.

And I wouldn't change a thing.

I still enjoy my morning coffee with my dearest friend. We still disscuss our day. I still love routine.

More importantly, I love my life. I love my children for making me a mother. I love the craziness of the day to day.



More posts to come~~as soon as~~~well somewhere in the midst of my chaos!


1 comment:

  1. Isn't it wonderful being a Mom.....it is my favorite of all....

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